Fear

I'm scared.

I never have admitted that publicly, but it's completely true, and I want to be honest.

I'm scared of going on the mission field.
I'm scared of all the "unknowns" in my future.
I'm scared of being hurt by people that I care about.
I'm scared of leaving my family and everything that I've known here in the States.
I'm scared of being laughed at in another culture as I'm trying to learn language and culture.
I'm scared.

But God is teaching me the true meaning of the verse that says "There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear."

God is perfectly loving. He has a good and perfect plan for my life that I can trust.  I don't need to be afraid. But a lot of times, I still am.

This song has been a huge encouragement to me recently:

Holy Spirit Have Your Way - Leeland

Long after the tears fall I'm still your child
I put down my defenses and lay down my pride
Love and forgiveness flow in deep and wide
So I run to you and surrender all!

[CHORUS]
As I lay down my life
And pick up my cross
What a joy it is to give my life away to you
All that I need,
All that I seek
Is You here with me
Holy Spirit have Your way in me!

In times of trouble, though trials may come
The rock of ages is standing strong
I'm fighting battles, but the war is won
So I'll run to you and surrender all

[CHORUS]
As I lay down my life
And pick up my cross
What a joy it is to give my life away to you
All that I need,
All that I seek
Is You here with me
Holy Spirit have Your way in me!

More of You and less of me, God
More of You and less of me, God
More of You and less of me, God
More of You overflowing

[CHORUS]
As I lay down my life
And pick up my cross
What a joy it is to give my life away to you
All that I need,
All that I seek
Is You here with me
Holy Spirit have Your way in me!
Holy Spirit have Your way in me!